Hey guys have you ever felt like you were too shy to share what was really on your mind? You know what I'm talking about. The time when your friend is wearing the most disgusting outfit on the planet but you don't want to say anything because she thinks it rocks. Or how about the time when your best friend is acting like a snob and you just want to call her out on it but you cant because you are at a party and you don't want to start a fight. I know some people can just go out and say "That is atrocious. Take it off." but most of the time I'm not one of those people. I'm on the opposite end, where I say the funniest and wittiest things but no one hears them but me because I'm too scared to say what I mean or say what I feel. So this is for that person. The person people watching at the mall beneath their sunglasses. The person that is possible the coolest person on earth, but no one every knows because no one cares enough to look deeper into the quiet, nerdy girl in the back corner of class. Here is a sneak peek into that girl's mind:
Too Shy to Share
Have you ever felt like you are to shy to share?
I feel like this almost everyday.
On the inside I have a lot to say,
On the inside my emotions run wild,
On the inside I speak my mind.
But on the outside,
On the outside I try to not cause problems
On the outside I just nod and smile at everything and everyone
On the outside I don't show my hurt
But on the inside,
I can never shut up or shut down
Inside my head is where I spend all my time
Inside my head, I analyze every detail, every aspect of life
Inside my head, I say the sassy comeback or the harsh truth
Because sometimes its just not worth it to say it out loud.
It's not worth the trouble to tell her that shirt doesn't look good, and risk hurting her feeling.
It's not worth the trouble to tell a person how I really feel about them, and risk becoming a bitch.
It's not worth the trouble to start a fight I know I don't want to finish, and risk losing a friend.
It's just not worth the risk.
Sometimes it's just easier to pretend that nothing phases you.
Sometimes it's just easier to avoid all conflict.
Sometimes it's just easier to sit back and watch the world go by.
So that's why sometimes,
I am too shy to share.
So that's how I feel most of time. Luckily, I have a best friend who is trying to help me get over my fear. I encourage you to say what's on your mind and I will try and do the same.
***That's all for today, -chey_kidd12 <3***